It is okay if .........

Don't Let Anyone Ever Make You Feel Like You Don't Deserve What You Want

 Don't listen to people that tell you, you can't have the one thing you desire just because you're weak in their eyes.

POKE THEIR EYES THEN!

IT IS OKAY

It’s okay if…you’re worried everyone knows more than you.

It’s okay if…you don’t have enough self-confidence.

It’s okay if…you’re secretly afraid that people will laugh at you.

It’s okay if…you question your own capabilities.

It’s okay if…you spent all weekend doing nothing but watching movies.

It’s okay if…you sometimes suck.

 It’s okay if…you haven’t reached your potential yet.

 It’s okay if…you sort of resent the people doing better than you.

It's okay if...they look down on you.

It's okay if...they make you feel like shit.

It's okay if...people don't find you pretty in the outside.

It's okay if...it didn't worked out.  

It's okay if...you never get what you want.

None of it matters.

Because…

YOU'VE TRIED YOUR BEST.

and you are what you are.

MBBS

they called on thursday regarding MET, i passed the test and the interview, and  i got in!!
woohoooooo
MBBS.
 I can see my future now.
syukran :')

I AM BACK

...........................hey I'm back!! I didn't have much time to write when I was in my matriculation programme in semester 2, I WAS quite busy. and it took nearly 2 months for me to write back after matrics ended( 2 months + 5 months in sem 2 matriculation= 7 months WITHOUT BLOGGING). clearly my brain isn't ready to think of any post with relevant topics so I'm just gonna warm up a bit for today. 

deheck  2 months? where was I??!!! bcoz I was studying...yeah studying during my hols for MET. so i was preparing! hihihi. It sucks when you have to study during holidays while  the others spend time with their friends and I'm with my books. total boredom. 

So.... MET? stands for Medical Entry Test 2012  The MET was held in MSU building 6th floor and the interview was in science building 11th floor, both on 14/6/2012. It was TOUGH. the only subject that I'm really confident at was biology (of coz, its my fav subject of all time! ). PHYSICS=the toughest, MATHS, everyone didn't have spare time T___T , CHEMISTRY ;50-50 . and the interview..... there are 4 interviewer(doctors) and 40 candidates(+me)...........and I've waited for almost 3 hours to go in.. so I guess I did a lot of mistakes during the interview. sob sob. I thought I'll get much likely the same questions as the others, so I was preparing the answer in my mind and ready to speak up,  but then , the doctor asked something DIFFERENT from what I thought he would ask **based on other candidates' interview ** . So my mind got confused and .................... there goes nervous breakdown!   ...I did my best but I think I screwed up a lot...50% correct 50% wrong answers...sobsob. WTH. and the result will be announced tomorrow.  T__T

 so after MET, here I am! back to blog! ....... me, at home spend a lot of time doing house chores and feed babies (my 15 y/o sis and 17 y/o bro which I call them babies).

at first i'm intended to write about my life in matriculation semester 2, yeah it was soooo fun that I spent 5 months (more or less) so fast. well, semester 2 is a LOT better than semester 1 (which I'll explain about it later , gotta recall all events first). 

-salwa :)

START FRESH

It was my thought that running away to a new place will change everything.

Life was boring. "Living each day doing everyday routine" and the people that I met, was nice. But now the fact that those people have become selfish and intolerant to me, yet to some others;  you guys are so irritating to my eyes. Yess you bother me that much. I leave you alone, but heck! you keep bothering me. I didn't do anything wrong to you so far, I'm so sure bout that. I keep reminding myself, that I will never mess with other people and only mind my own business so that no one will ever try to mess with me. But, the situation turned the other way around!!!   

MY

OWN 

"Dear you, is that really necessary  to annoy other people? having fun ey? . I keep watching and waiting in silence, when are you going to realize that your actions are so immature and you act like a fool. You keep doing the same thing over and over;  have you ever realized that your actions might hurt someone's feeling (even when they don't tell you so) ?? yeah. You're immature; that you can't even put yourself in others shoes and never will think before act.  Wait until your turn is up. Only then you know how WE feel.  KARMA."

Maybe, just maybe this is some kind of a test. yeah I'll get some benefits out of it. Anyway, its a waste of time and energy to think about people like youuu, I'm too busy to react and I've no time to counter back. Its just tiring to see you doing it over and over. I hope you'll just realize how tiring it is . Aren't you tired living like that? Pfffftttt you can't be serious. 

-salwa-

I had this kind of thinking (run away to a new place and starts a new life, fresh start) , and I've been waiting when will the time come. Here I am, PERLIS! really. It is a new start. And here, you can see some people having "culture shock". Pity them. Easily  I've also learned a few new things. That friendship also, can bring you HARM. Some of your friends are backstabber, some just find you only when they need help, some leave you hanging, and this is when you know, THE TRUE COLOURS of your friends. Some are just the egomaniac type. Egomaniacs? oh yeah. You have to start the conversation first orrrr, you'll never talk to them. Nice guyssssss nicee.

yeah I know you underestimated me, I'm the kind and innocent type you say; and you take advantage of that right? Pity you. Never will see what my true colours are. Its like a test from me you know. You've failed the test. :)
 I'm not that kind and innocent girl you always see, Its just that I've been a much much better person than before. (like you know what I mean, nah u'll never get it).  I'm not afraid to explore the world and meet various types of people, (heck yeah its fun traveling around!!), I'm afraid that I'll keep seeing the same type of person. It's BORING ya know coz I'm easily bored; staying with one  type of people that  constantly bother  my life (annoyed face). Grow up people!!

HEART'S STEALER

sitting here thinking of how much I miss you.

-unfair.-

do you ever miss me?

*cryinginside

T-T

I guess this is it.

Forever Alone?  

can't wait to meet new people, and start fresh.

4 VARIABLE IQ TEST

-----So I was bored.----
I spent 5 minutes on this 4 Variable IQ Test.
here goes my result;


The 4-Variable IQ Test 

Visual

15% interpersonal, 45% visual, 30% verbal and 10% mathematical!

Your strongest type of intelligence is Visual. You thrive on spatial thinking, shapes, patterns, and form.  You're unlikely to be blind.  You can probably think in 3D very easily. You are very likely to be attractive, based on only my most rudimentary anecdotal evidence.  And you are likely to appreciate a good body in a lover.
Your specific scores follow.  On any axis, a score above 25% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 25% means you use it less. It says nothing about cognitive skills, just your interest.

click click: ^-^
 http://helloquizzy.okcupid.com

WAYS TO CONFESS LOVE

People, there's a proverb that says, "You can't hide love or a cough".
 

Ways to confess your love:

The OLD FASHION way: Call, blurt it out, and hang up.
Alternately: Call, don’t talk and dedicate play their favorite song.
This seems kind of stupid, but romantic! You may look like a coward, and they won’t be 100% sure it’s you, but it’s enough to get their attention.

The ROMANTIC way: Give them a rose or a love letter, or draw something.
In other words, use your talents and make your statement as an artist. You can write something of your own, or copy a “I love you” quote or poem (you can find them after a brief search over the Web). You don’t have to give them yourself. You can leave them in their desk, their pocket or outside their house. You can also send them flowers (guys admit that they love being sent flowers) including a special dedication.

The HEROIC way: Throw it into their face
Better choose to tell them when they least expect to hear it, like when you are having dinner at a restaurant and they can’t overreact. However, you can tell them any time you want, when you are jogging together, when you are stuck in a traffic jam…just take a big breath and go for it!

The MODERN way: Send an e-mail gift card or text message.
This is less painful. You don’t have to look them in the eye while telling them. But you risk that they may not answer; at least not immediately. Maybe they won’t check their email, or may have forgotten their cell phone at home. In case they doesn’t answer you, can either assume that they don’t want to, or that you are a bit unlucky and their phone was stolen that day! If you can stand the entire waiting thing, you can try something like that.

The DEVIOUS way: Make them tell you first.
You can simply ask them if they love you during a romantic night. They wouldn’t like to spoil the atmosphere – if you are not afraid to be a little more provocative, you can ask him between the sheets (the worst answer they can give you is yes). You can also ask in front of your friends during a conversation or during a table game. They’ll spit it out first, unless they want to make a fool out of themselves.

The CHILDISH way: Besides funny notes and little hand-made presents, you can write a “I love you” note and tie it to a rock. Then throw the rock into their room. You might break a window or two, but it’ll be worth it. They say the only difference between a man and a boy are their toys. So, if that is true, he’ll love it!

The EXTREME way: Print their photo, write “I love you” on it, and post it somewhere they’ll see it for sure! Which train do they take to go to work? Which building do they see every morning when they open their window? Does their house have an elevator? That’s a good choice!

you should START now ppl! LOL. xD

EVENTssss

Ya Allah. punyalah banyak event kat KMP. tak ingat dah. 

 so upload gambar yg mana ada je lah. 

meet my roomates, ey, lagi sorang mana?? :D

aku serupa orang pecah rumah.

bila roomates bergambar... cenggini lah jadinya

pada saat ini. beginilah rupa meja study-ku.

 

 4 tahun tak praktis sketch. amik kau senget2 jadinya. haa.

 pabila bosan... tangan pun bergerak. gatal2 nak conteng.

EVENTsss!!

 okay event 1

berbasikal keliling sawah KAGEM. memang takkan rasa la kalau kat Shah Alam. untung aku.

tengok. berbasikal sempat lagi snap ni. heheh. hebat tak? tengok, Perlis. awan pun takda. panas ya know. sekarang ni, kemarau weh. last week aku pi, kering je sawah. kering kontang.

event 2

menang weh :') berbaloi praktis 7 bulan. (CHOIR -college)

thanks darshee. baby darsh

event 3

batak bergambar pegang 10kg sat -..-

hah. nasib menang. 1st place. terkejut gak. haha

atudiaa husna. dengan gayaaa

pastu pa lagi, terus tuju ke Pizza Hut. malas tak malas. jalan kaki woiiii. panas!

haa ni nak bergambo kat tangga tepi cashier Pizza Hut Kangar. apa nak jadi.

ha. smurfff. lepas makan, pi window shopping plak. cuci mata.

maklumlah, after mid-sem exam.semua tempat nk pegi.

korea mari. lepak punya lepak, terjumpa husna hassan kat situ. dia keluarkan korea 1000won note. 

event 4.

Maulidur Rasul.

tema jubah hitam, pink. 

 first time la aku menyarung jubah hitam. pastu shawl pink? berkilat gitu? pulak dahhh...pink weh. pink. so not me. btw, ni barisan aweks C1 floor 3.

apa ni? 

err...bukan niat memperaga. bila roomates bergambar. cenggini lah jadinya.

event 5

karnival kebudayaan 1 Malaysia generation 12 KMP.

-with hani, ana.-

bila classmate aku menari tarian canggung..

jye min cantik :)

chinese wearing saree and indian wearing cheongsam. nice rite? <3

i know...aku mencemar pandangan je..hmmm..sob sob T_T

handsome kan??! kalah lelaki melayu. whats his name? this chinese guy is sooo cute wearing baju melayu,+tengkolok+samping! 

tersenyum izzura disebelahnya. :D

choir girls+chinese yoyo boys!

aip mira aippp

diorang ni power wehhh gempak gila. sungguh rugi gambar diorang time performance takda.

superbbbbb

cantik kann outfit diaaa? :0

good job abg wan!

memang gempak habislah semua yg terlibat. 

WEH GAMBAR CHOIR "voice of unity" TAKDAAA 

alaaaaaa T_T

takda sape ke upload gambar kiterang? hmm. 

nak upload video. tapi ada masalah pulak. gaaaah

Iheartyou

It is me being stupid, I keep saying "Iloveyou" here and there. Couldn't stop. My heart is going to EXPLODE at any time. okay thats too much. tehehehe :D

HELLO awak,

more than that actually ;)

 is it?

ah gedik la pulak. terlebih sudah. maaf. 

ya, 

seterusnya,

hmm, macam ni boleh? jkjk. :D

me. sad. umph sob sob. :'(
jauhnyaa jarak kita.

DO NOT TEST MY PATIENCE.

please. aku paling tak suka orang take advantage ke atas aku. fancy that huh? tak bermakna aku lembut hati, aku tak pernah mengamuk. its not that im going to let YOU do that very easily. oh no no no. just because i've been very nice to you, you underestimated me. oh for so long. pernah tengok aku mengamuk depan orang ramai, yelling tak ingat dunia kat muka orang? pasal tak pernah lah, kau pijak kepala aku. how can i keep myself calm when im forced to deal with people like this? honestly, bila aku dah marah, sangat susah untuk aku maafkan orang tu kalau dia tak minta maaf. well i've been on my best behaviour. kau yg buat aku marah, kau tanggung padahnya. aku boleh sabar utk masa yg sangat lama, tapi bila aku hilang sabar, aku tak ingat dunia. jangan sampai aku jadi macam tu. aku sabar tak bermakna orang boleh take advantage sampai macam tu skali.

lol.
right.
*cooling effect*
restore patience.
smile. :)

Confession 2011

2011- I'm still loving you :(

2012- learn how to.. let go.

I love you for a thousand years

and a thousand more..

favourite things to do

yay dah habis sketch potrait Thomas Dekker!! (tak perlu upload pun potrait tu. just nak bagitahuu! best nya dah siap!)

bila fikir2 balik kan, dah lama aku tak buat apa yang aku suka&minat separuh nyawa. Hobi.

My life My Passion

swimming

dah lama macam berkurun rasanya, tak pi swimming. rindu sangat. sangat. hobi separuh nyawa okay.

tu lah, tarik diri masuk peringkat negeri enn dulu2. bersara sekejap sbb doktor cakap, telinga aku..heh. sensitif kalau air masuk. tapi, tanggung la sendiri kalau nak sangat pergi berenang. ada aku kesah. aku yg tanggung. heee degil ;D

memasak

suka memasak.

baking okay je.. tapi bagi aku, memasak memang lebih pakar daripada baking sebab bagi aku baking tu lebih kurang macam makanan side order je. memasak ni, bagi aku macam makanan utama, sangat penting, resipi hehe diri sendiri alter la kan. mak aku memang galakkan aku praktis memasak smpai setiap hari pun memang aku masuk dapur, memasak. kadang2 tolong2 je, mak yg masak. hehe

go gourmet !! ;D

sketching and drawing (potrait and cartoon strips)

bak kata orang Perlis, contiang (conteng).

kalau aku tengah bosan, confirm tangan aku gatal jee nak conteng2 lukis2 atas apa2 aja yang ada dekat dgn aku waktu tu. tu laa masalah aku. hehe. oh tadi baru habis men-contiang. hehe bukan contiang, sketching. potrait Thomas Dekker. memang teruk ah line dia. orang kata cantik. tp bagi aku, urghh. sebab memang dah 4 tahun aku tak sketch potrait. tu yg jadi teruk tu. tak praktis kan. padan muka.

aku start contiang cartoon strips time form 4, dekat kem nilam negeri Selangor, ada cartoonist ( majalah Apo ke Ujang. tak ingat la) ajar cane nak enhance skills.

futsal

lama nyaaaa tak main futsal. takpa lah. time kecik2 boleh la. dah besar2 ni bahaya sikit kalau main ganas2. ishh lelaki tak paham punyaa lah. perempuan paham. 

travelling

YA Tuhan, last skali pi overseas pun time form 2. ni nak kena renew passport lagi. lamaaa rasanya tak pi travel negara orang. terakhir pun pi Phuket, walaupun sebelah Malaysia, tapi best woiiii. Pi round Phuket, pi Krabi by speedboat ronda2 pulau yg tak terkira banyaknya tu. Aku ni memang. Apa yg berkaitan laut ke air ke memang aku suka. oh ye, next year! yes! InsyaAllah pergi banyak tempat. amiin

melepak dengan member buat benda gila-gila

korang janganlah takut, walaupun aku pernah mengamuk tak ingat manusia kiri kanan time form 2 dulu, aku ni gila-gila jugak okay. tu lah siapa suruh uji kesabaran aku... mentang2 aku jenis take it easy kan, buat tak tahu je, ambik kesempatan pula eh. kan dah kena. sorry la time tu aku macam scary sikit, aku dok tengking2 mengamuk dekat muka orang tersebut, tanpa peduli orang kiri kanan.  aku ni gila2 sebenarnya. real identity.  ada masa2 tertentu aku tunjuk. siapa yg tak kenal aku memang takkan nampak laa. sekarang, jarang2 dapat lepak2 dgn member, tu laa, bila semua dah besar, semua ada jalan masing2, ada yg dah berpunya, dah tu kawan pun kena buat appointment kalau nak jumpa. maklumlah hotsetapp kan. plus, semua ada tanggungjawab dia tersendiri kan. oh how I wish I could turn back time. teringin nak buat benda gila2 yg separuh illegal, rindu lah.

blogging

for sure. this is my open diary. luahan perasaan, pendapat, articles, catatan peristiwa, semua ada kat sini.

lepas habis je sketching tadi, aku terus terfikir, aku nak buat benda tu seumur hidup! lepas tu, aku list out la benda2 lain yg aku nak buat jugak seumur hidup. I feel goooooooood. hilang semua kesedihan, stress, whatsoever. 

p.s: nak jadi photographer untuk diri sendiri. rekod memori hidup yg diabadikan dalam gambar. :)

Love infinitely

things are different when u'r not around.
...jiwangssss enough?

falling in love with you was never an option. Its not about the physical attraction whatsoever, it just happened that way, and what comes after that is just something that is totally out of control. #you'll never notice.

Define love. Your love definition.  I don't have one. Because it seems so much is left unsaid. Love is to feel, love is beautiful. Words cannot describe how i feel about you. Words cannot express how much you mean to me. It is beyond my control that I fall for you, deeply. Two options.  To wait it out or to let go.

WHY AM I FALLING OUT OF LOVE?

 one thing I know for sure is I have this feeling for an unknown reason.  but why him?

and this "why him" question has been asked for almost 3 years. Could anyone tell  me why? Don't wanna wait forever without an answer.  I  just keep telling myself that this is normal. Life cycle.

zorro! :D

maybe this explains why  =')

Places I'd Like To Visit

dream dream dream

sebelum pergi tempat2 di bawah, semestinya akan ku lawat Tanah Suci terlebih dahulu. InsyaAllah next year ;)

Rome, Italy

architecture,food,arts

artworks

NZ

AUSTRIA

whewwww nice

ingat kaaan? kan? kan? sound of music

Okinawa, Japan

awesome!!

subhanallah

Okinawa Churaumi Aquarium. nice rite? :D

Krabi, Phuket ,Thailand

fav place :)

I was here in 2007 , 5 months after the tsunami

there were the water snakes hiding in between the rocks.

to krabi, by speedboat

Krabi, yeahhhhh ;D

oh here is another attraction

Phuket Fantasea

everything's nice here!

the food and massage therapy and shopping and Krabi!

Semporna, Sabah, Malaysia

next year also :)

snorkeling or scuba?

feewwwwiiiiiittt

Melbourne, Australia

2012. yeah.

shopping arcade and restaurants

Holland

remember Aa+Bb novel by Hlovate where Addin and Benz bumped into each other? :D

tulips

beaut!

heeee, can't wait! :D

Travelling is my passion! :D

next year gonna be a great year for me! yeehaaa